WARNING
Readers/Visitors, This is an adult gay site and you may find things here which may not appear proper to you, therfore you are requested not to proceed further if you feel offended by gay sex. The stories here are purely fictional and any resemblance is purely incidental.
meri phat lee.
ab tak ek discussion, ek rehearsal saa chal rahaa thaa, aur mere man mein kahin na kahin yah ummeed thi ki yah ek sapana hai jo abhi toot jaayegaa. ye donon hansate huye "aaindaa mat karanaa" kah kar chale jaayenge.
par ab wo ghadi aa gayi thi jab mere saamane ek jaan jaani thi.
meri aankhein phati huyi theen. main sakate mein khadaa huaa thaa.
pistaul ke meri haalat dekhi aur daantaa, "bhosadi ke. hosh mein aa. kapade pahan aur bhaag jaa."
ab mujhe pistaul aur chaaku kaa dar nahin thaa. mainne use aur zor se daant diyaa. "ek aadami jaan de rahaa hai, aur tujhe jaan bachaane ki soojh rahi hai. itani phatati hai to dum dabaakar bhaag jaa."
meri aansoo bahane lage. mainne jaa kar jhuk kar apane chaand ke maathe par ek kiss kiyaa, aur usake donon gaalon par apani donon hatheliyaan rakh deen.
pistaul ne kahaa, "bhosadi ke. ungaliyon ke nishaan chhod rahaa hai. police pakad legi."
mainne rote huye kahaa, "pakad legi to maar daalegi. tujhe kyaa. tuu hi mujhe maar daal."
pistaul ne serious ho kar kahaa, "akkal nahin aaee? ishq ho gayaa hai isase?"
mainne rote huye kahaa, "haan." aur apane chaand ki donon aankhon par ek-ek kiss kiyaa.
wo donon bade pyaar se mujhe dekhane lage. kyaa unhein mujhamein apanaa bhaaee nazar aa rahaa thaa?
pistaul ne apanaa sar jhatakaa aur chaaku ko ishaaraa kiyaa.
chaaku ne chaaku ko chaand ki gardan se hataa diyaa, aur mujhe wahaan se hataa kar thodaa door khadaa kar diyaa. usane mere peechhe aa kar, mere haath mere peechhe kar ke, mujhe kas kar jakad liyaa aur chaaku meri gardan par rakh diyaa.
main agar hilataa bhi to chakku meri gardan mein ghus jaataa. mujh par phir se dar haavi ho gayaa. main patthar ban kar khadaa rahaa.
meraa chaand blade nahin chalaa paa rahaa thaa. usane blade apani nas se hataa liyaa.
pistaul ne apani jeb se doosaraa khulaa blade nikaalaa, aur usane mere chand ki kalaai pakad kar do waar kare.
mere chaand ki kalaaee ki nas se aadhaa incha kaa ek tukadaa kat ke kaaleen par gir gayaa.
kalaaee se khoon ki dhaar bahane lagi.
mere chaand ki ek karaah bhi nahin nikalee. wo baithaa hairaani se apane haath se bahataa khoon dekh rahaa thaa.
pistaul ne apane haath mein pakade huye blade ko apane pant ke paayache ke bheetar ponchaa aur blade ko phir se jeb mein daal liyaa.
pistaul ne apani shirt se mere chaand kaa blade waalaa haath jakad kar mere chaand ke haath mein pakade huye blade ko usi ki nas se bahate khoon mein achchhi tarah dubaayaa. phir usaki ungali aur angoothaa khol diyaa. blade neeche gir gayaa.
mere chaand ne "suicide" kar liyaa thaa. wo abhi bhi achambhe se apane haath ko aur ham teenon ko dekh rahaa thaa. khoon ki dhaar bah rahi
thi.
thodi der mein chaand ke hosh kam hone lage. usaki aankhein band hone lageen.
pistaul aur chaaku mere chaand ko aur kaaleen par jamaa ho rahe khoon ke dher ko dekh rahe the.
deewaar ghadi ki tik-tik sunaaee de rahi thi. meri aankhon se aansu aur chaand ke haath se khoon bah rahaa thaa. isake alaawaa sab kuchh bilkul tham gayaa thaa.
aur phir jab khoon kaa ek badaa saa dher kaaleen par phail gayaa, aur nas se khoon bahane ki raftaar bahut dheemi ho gayi, tab pistaul ne chaaku ko ishaaraa kiyaa.
chaaku mujhe le kar peechhe waale darwaaze ki or chalaa, jisase wo donon aaye the. pistaul saath aayaa.
darwaaze par pahunch kar chaaku ne mujhe chhod diyaa.
pistaul ne mujhe zor se ek jhaapad maaraa.
main hosh mein aayaa, aur zor se kaanpaa.
pistual ne mujhase kahaa, "hosh aa gayaa? gaur se sun. ham jaa rahe hain. abhi subah hone mein waqt hai. yahaan koi nahin aane waalaa hai. soch le aaraam se. tujhe phansanaa ho yahin baith, yaa ring kar ke khud hi police ko bulaa le aur phansi par chadh jaa. par akal hai to bhaag jaa."
main haan mein sar hilaa thaa.
pistual ne kahaa, "par ek baat achchhi tarah samajh le. yah mar rahaa hai. tuu ab ise nahin bachaa sakataa. hasptaal le jaane yaa doctor bulaane ki qoshish ki to bhi yah to nahin bachegaa, too hi phans jaayegaa. isase abhi aur choomaa-chaati karani ho to khoon se door rahanaa aur isake marane ke baad isake badan se apane nishaan ponch denaa. isane tujhe tabaah kar diyaa aur too hai ki abhi bhi isase ishq kar rahaa hai. tuu bhi mere bhaaee ki tarah paagal hai."
phir usane mere sar par bade pyaar se haath pheraa. wahi haath jisase usane poori berahami se abhi ek qatl kiyaa thaa.
pistaul ne darawaaze ki saankal kholi. wo donon baahar nikal gaye aur seedhiyon ki taraf jaane lage. wo dikhanaa band ho gaye.
mainne darawaaze par sitkani lagaaee.
main daud kar chaand ke paas gayaa. usane aankhein band kar li thin. usaki saans bahut dheere-dheere chal rahi thi. usakaa gulaabi cheharaa ab peelaa aur safed padaa huaa thaa.
main khoon se bachataa huaa apane chaand ke chehare par jhuk gayaa aur use paagalon ki tarah choomane lagaa. mainne badbadaataa jaa rahaa thaa. "I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. ..."
main ro rahaa thaa.
mere chaand ke munh se kuchh aawaaz nikali. mainne sar hataa kar use dekhaa. usane aankhein thodi si khol dee theen. wo kaanpaa aur usane atakate huye kahaa, "thandaa lag rahaa hai."
mainne idhar-udhar dekhaa. main kyaa karoon? mujhe heat conveyor dikhaa. mainne daud kar usakaa switch on kiyaa. garm hawaa kaa ek jhonkaa aayaa. mainne use mod kar apane chaand ki taraf kar diyaa. mere chaand par garm hawaa padane lagi. usakaa kaanpanaa band ho gayaa.
main phir do kadam daud kar usake paas pahunchaa. usaki taaqat kam hoti jaa rahi thi.
main rotaa jaa rahaa thaa. main phir se use choomane lagaa aur badbadaane lagaa. "I love you. I love you, chaand."
use phir thand lagi. wo zor se kaanpaa. mainne cheharaa hataa kar use dekhaa.
usane kai baar atakate huye, phusphusaate huye bolaa, "mere bhaai kaa khayaal rakhanaa."
ye usake bole aakhiri shabd the.
main bhauchakkaa saa use dekh rahaa thaa. main usake bhaaee ko jaanataa bhi nahin thaa. usane khud hi kahaa thaa ki usake bhaee ke baare mein kisi ko nahin maaloom thaa. main usake bhaaee ko kaise dhoondhoongaa?
usane meri hairaani samajhi.
usane apanaa haath uthaane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin uthaa paayaa.
usane apanaa cheharaa ghumaane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin ghumaa paayaa.
usaki aankhon ki putaliyaan ghoomeen.
aur phir ek taraf dekhane lageen.
mainne udhar dekhaa. wo ek steel almirah ko dekh rahaa thaa.
meraa ronaa ruk gayaa thaa. mainne do kadam daud kar us almaari tak gayaa aur use kholaa. wo khul gaee. wo kapadon se bhari huyi thi.
mainne chaand ki or dekhaa ki ab kyaa karoon. wo mujhe hi dekh rahaa thaa. nahin, wo mere peechhe almaari ko dekh rahaa thaa. almaari mein kuchh thaa.
mainne kapadon ke beech mein jagah banaa kar dekhaa.
Almaari mein peechhe, neeche ki taraf kai hard disks rakhi theen.
meri samajh mein aa gayaa. mainne wo sabhi hard disk nikaal kar usake doublebed par phailaa deen. 12 Hard disk theen.
main do kadam daud kar chaand ke paas pahunchaa.
mainne poochaa, "in hard disk mein tumhaare bhaaee kaa pataa hai?"
usane ek paar palak jhapaki. kyaa wo haan kah rahaa thaa?
mainne poochaa, "main inhein apane saath le jaaoon aur dekhoon?"
usane ek paar palak jhapaki. haan.
mainne sochaa aur poochaa, "kyaa inamein password hai?"
usane ek paar palak jhapaki. haan.
mainne kahaa, "password bataa."
usane munh kholane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin khol paayaa.
usane kuchh bolane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin bol paayaa.
usane putaliyaan hilaane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin hilaa paayaa.
usane palakein jhapakane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin kar paayaa.
usaki saari taaqat khatam ho chuki thi. wo mar rahaa thaa.
main phir rone lagaa thaa. he bhagwaan. ise ek second ki zindagi aur de-de, taaki yah password bataa sake. taaki main usaki files khol sakoon. taaki main isake bhaaee ko dhoondh sakoon. taaki main usakaa khayaal rakh sakoon. taaki yah chain se mar sake.
main paagalon ki tarah use choomataa jaa rahaa thaa. main gidgidaa rahaa thaa, "mujhe password bataa de, chaand. tabhi main tere bhaae ko dhoondh paaoongaa. tabhi main usakaa khayaal rakh paaoongaa. main waadaa karataa hoon ki main tere bhaaee kaa apani poori zindagi khayaal rakhoongaa. par mujhe password bataa, chaand. I love you, chaand. thodi himmat aur kar le, chaand. bas ek baar, aakhiri baar aur, chaand."
usakaa badan aakhiri baar kaanpaa, aur wo behosh ho gayaa. hameshaa ke liye.
phir mainne usaki saanson ko rukaa mahasoos kiyaa.
phir mainne usake chehare ko thandaa hote mahasoos kiyaa.
meraa chaand mar chukaa thaa.
mainne dekhaa. usaki kati nas par khoon ki ek bond jamaa thi jo bahut hi dheere-dheere badi ho rahi thi.
usake chehare par sukuun thaa. use "suicide" mein koi bhi dard nahin huaa thaa, kam se kam jismaani dard to nahin.
usaki adhkhuli bejaan aanekhin meri taraf dekh rahi thin, aur kah rahi thin, "mere bhaaee kaa khayaal rakhanaa."
mainne usaki palakein band karin.
main usake bhaaee kaa khayaal nahin rakh paaoongaa.
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mainne do-teen gahari-gahari saansein leen. meraa dimaag saaf kaam karane lagaa. meraa yahaan par phansane kaa, yaa police ko bulaane kaa koi iraadaa nahin thaa.
mainne kapadon ke us dher mein se sabase neeche se nikaal kar apane chaand ke ek jodaa kapade pahane. chaddhi, baniyaan kaa jhanjhat nahin. sirf ek shirt aur ek jeans. mainne usakaa ek badaa saa cap pahanaa.
oopar se mainne usaki wahi qaatil leather jacket pahan lee. wo jacket usakaa sabase achchhaa ishtahaar rahati.
main usake raat waale joote pahan kar room mein har taraf khaamkhwaah kuchh baar chalaa, taaki mere pairon ke puraane nishaanon ke oopar naye nishaan aa jaayen, jo ki usake jooton ke hon. phir mainne usake joote waise hi daal diye jaise usane raat ko daale the. phir mainne usake doosari jodi joote pahane, binaa moze ke.
main jis-jis jagah baithaa thaa, mainne jo-jo chhuaa thaa, us har jagah ko mainne usake ek rumaal se achchhi tarah ponchhaa.
mujhe dhyaan aayaa ki usake paani, sode, colddrinks mein se kuchh mein dawaa mili huyi thi. mainne fridge se paani ki sabhi botalein nikaal kar unako sink mein khali kar diyaa aur botalein dho kar, nayaa paani bhar kar fridge mein rakh diyaa. phir mainne sode, colddrinks ki saari bolatein khol kar sink mein bahaa din aur dho kar kitchen mein neech ek taraf rakh deen. mainne sink achchhi tarah dho diyaa. aur phir
mainne fridge ko bhi off kar diyaa. kuchh cheezein sad jaayein to baakiyon ki bhi testing nahin ki jaayegi.
kitchen mein hi darwaaze mein lagaaee jaane waali ek moti chain padi thi. usamein taalaa aur do chaabhiyaan thin. mainne chain, taalaa aur doosari chaabhi apani jeb mein daal li. kitchen ki light off ki. aur doosari chaabhi le jaa kar computer table par rakh di.
waqt bilkul nahin thaa. mainne usakaa ek bag uthaayaa. usamein usaki wo 12 hard disk bhareen. apane saare kapade, apanaa mobile, hands-free, cap, joote rakhe. mainne bag apane kandhe par daalaa. main jaane ke liye tayyaar thaa.
kahin door se fazr ki aazaan ki aawaaz sunaaee di, "allaah ho akabar."
mainne jaa kar apane chaand ke murdaa chehare ko kai baar choomaa. mainne usase kahaa, "toone mujhe password nahin bataayaa hai, chaand. main teri files ko kholane ki qoshish karoongaa, par agar nahin khol paayaa to main tere bhaaee ko nahin dhoondh paaoongaa. tab main usakaa khayaal nahin rakh paaoongaa."
imaam saaheb bol rahe the, "alassalaato Khairun minn al naum".
mainne apane chaand se kahaa, "namaaz need se behatar hai, chaand. uth. mujhe password bataa de."
wo nahin uthaa. main usase lipataa rotaa rahaa aur aazaan sunataa rahaa. aazaan khatm ho gayi.
mainne apane chaand ko aakhiri baar choomaa. phir mainne usakaa badan, cheharaa aur usake kapadon ko bhi achchhi tarah ponchaa, jahaan-jahaan mainne chhuaa thaa.
mainne rumaal se CFL ke switch off kiye. tab mujhe dhyaan aaya ki main heat-conveyor ke switch se to apani ungali ke nishaan hataanaa bhool gayaa thaa. mainne rumaal se heat conveyor ko aur usake switch ko ponchaa. heat conveyor abhi bhi chal rahaa thaa. mainne sochaa use band kar doon. par mere chaand kaa badan thandaa ho rahaa thaa. mainne heat conveyor chalane diyaa.
main darawaaze tak pahunchaa. mainne rumaal se automatic lock kholaa. darwaazaa kholaa. mainne rumaal se aakhiri CFL off kari.
kamare mein andheraa chhaa gayaa.
mainne baahar aa kar rumaal se pakad kar handle kheenchaa. darwaazaa band huaa. usakaa lock apane aap lag gayaa.
mainne neeche jaa kar rumaal se main gate kaa stopper aur phir gate kholaa. main apani bike ko dhakelataa huaa baahar laayaa. bike khadi kar ke mainne gate band kiyaa. stopper lagaayaa. aur phir mainne kitchen se mili chain ko gate par baadh kar usamein taalaa lagaa diyaa. chaabhi mainne jeb mein daal li.
kahin koi nahin thaa. meraa bhaari bag mere kandhon par thaa. main bike dhakelataa huaa le gayaa, aur do galiyon ke baad use start kiyaa aur le chalaa. sadakein sunsaan padi theen.
raaste mein mujhe ek jagah par ek khaali public urinal dikhaa. jisake aage deewaar bani huyi thi. kahin koi nahin thaa. mainne us urinal mein jaa kar usake galiyaare mein apane chaand ke wo kapade-joote utaare jo main pahane thaa. mainne apani chaddhi-baniyaan, shirt-pant, jacket, cap, joote pahan liye. mainne apanaa mobile apani jeb mein rakhaa, mainne apanaa hands free kaan mein taangaa.
mainne usake kapade apane bag mein daale. mainne main gate par lagaaee chain ki chaabhi ko urinal ke peechhe ki naali mein daal diyaa. main bike par ud chalaa.
aur phir raaste mein sadakon ke kinaare door-door, alag-alag, pade sote huye bhikhariyon ke paas mainne chaand ki shirt, pant, cap, joote, rumaal rakh diye.
leather jacket itani mahangi thi ki bhikhaari ko hi shaq ho jaataa aur wo hi jaa kar police ko bataa sakataa thaa, yaa bechane ki qoshish to shartiyaa karataa. isaliye mainne use kisi ko nahin diyaa. baad ko dekhaa jaayegaa.
leather jacket se mere liye khataraa bilkul nahin badhaa thaa. agar police mujh tak pahunchati to leather jacket se pahale mujhe un 12 hard disks kaa hisaab denaa padataa.
main hostel pahunchaa. do gali pahale bike kaa engine kill kar diyaa, aur use ghaseetataa huaa le gayaa. kahin koi nahin thaa. mainne hostel ke neeche bike park kari. kahin koi nahin thaa. main beaawaaz apane room mein gayaa. ek halki si aawaaz ke saath room kaa taalaa kholaa. aur bheetar jaa kar sitkani lagaa di.
ab main safe thaa. filhaal.
thodi der mein mere dil kaa dhadakanaa normal huaa.
mainne apane ek briefcase mein apane chaand ki sabhi hard disks aur leather jacket rakh kar lock kar diyaa. mere chaand kaa bag mainne apane gadde ke neechhe chhupaa liyaa. kal, nahin aaj, din badal chukaa thaa, ise kisi ko de doongaa.
mainne change kiyaa, aur main chaddar odh kar bistar mein let gayaa.
mainne aankhein band ki aur meraa chaand meri bagal mein letaa huaa milaa. mainne usase kahaa, "toone mujhe passoword nahin bataayaa hai, chaand. main tere bhaaee ko nahin dhoondh paaoongaa."
wo muskuraataa huaa mujhase lipat gayaa. main usase lipat gayaa. mujhe need aa gayi.
khidaki se meri chaand-raat ki subah kaa ujaalaa phootane lagaa thaa.
meraa chaand ab meri poori zindagi mere saath rahane waalaa thaa.
Readers/Visitors, This is an adult gay site and you may find things here which may not appear proper to you, therfore you are requested not to proceed further if you feel offended by gay sex. The stories here are purely fictional and any resemblance is purely incidental.
meri phat lee.
ab tak ek discussion, ek rehearsal saa chal rahaa thaa, aur mere man mein kahin na kahin yah ummeed thi ki yah ek sapana hai jo abhi toot jaayegaa. ye donon hansate huye "aaindaa mat karanaa" kah kar chale jaayenge.
par ab wo ghadi aa gayi thi jab mere saamane ek jaan jaani thi.
meri aankhein phati huyi theen. main sakate mein khadaa huaa thaa.
pistaul ke meri haalat dekhi aur daantaa, "bhosadi ke. hosh mein aa. kapade pahan aur bhaag jaa."
ab mujhe pistaul aur chaaku kaa dar nahin thaa. mainne use aur zor se daant diyaa. "ek aadami jaan de rahaa hai, aur tujhe jaan bachaane ki soojh rahi hai. itani phatati hai to dum dabaakar bhaag jaa."
meri aansoo bahane lage. mainne jaa kar jhuk kar apane chaand ke maathe par ek kiss kiyaa, aur usake donon gaalon par apani donon hatheliyaan rakh deen.
pistaul ne kahaa, "bhosadi ke. ungaliyon ke nishaan chhod rahaa hai. police pakad legi."
mainne rote huye kahaa, "pakad legi to maar daalegi. tujhe kyaa. tuu hi mujhe maar daal."
pistaul ne serious ho kar kahaa, "akkal nahin aaee? ishq ho gayaa hai isase?"
mainne rote huye kahaa, "haan." aur apane chaand ki donon aankhon par ek-ek kiss kiyaa.
wo donon bade pyaar se mujhe dekhane lage. kyaa unhein mujhamein apanaa bhaaee nazar aa rahaa thaa?
pistaul ne apanaa sar jhatakaa aur chaaku ko ishaaraa kiyaa.
chaaku ne chaaku ko chaand ki gardan se hataa diyaa, aur mujhe wahaan se hataa kar thodaa door khadaa kar diyaa. usane mere peechhe aa kar, mere haath mere peechhe kar ke, mujhe kas kar jakad liyaa aur chaaku meri gardan par rakh diyaa.
main agar hilataa bhi to chakku meri gardan mein ghus jaataa. mujh par phir se dar haavi ho gayaa. main patthar ban kar khadaa rahaa.
meraa chaand blade nahin chalaa paa rahaa thaa. usane blade apani nas se hataa liyaa.
pistaul ne apani jeb se doosaraa khulaa blade nikaalaa, aur usane mere chand ki kalaai pakad kar do waar kare.
mere chaand ki kalaaee ki nas se aadhaa incha kaa ek tukadaa kat ke kaaleen par gir gayaa.
kalaaee se khoon ki dhaar bahane lagi.
mere chaand ki ek karaah bhi nahin nikalee. wo baithaa hairaani se apane haath se bahataa khoon dekh rahaa thaa.
pistaul ne apane haath mein pakade huye blade ko apane pant ke paayache ke bheetar ponchaa aur blade ko phir se jeb mein daal liyaa.
pistaul ne apani shirt se mere chaand kaa blade waalaa haath jakad kar mere chaand ke haath mein pakade huye blade ko usi ki nas se bahate khoon mein achchhi tarah dubaayaa. phir usaki ungali aur angoothaa khol diyaa. blade neeche gir gayaa.
mere chaand ne "suicide" kar liyaa thaa. wo abhi bhi achambhe se apane haath ko aur ham teenon ko dekh rahaa thaa. khoon ki dhaar bah rahi
thi.
thodi der mein chaand ke hosh kam hone lage. usaki aankhein band hone lageen.
pistaul aur chaaku mere chaand ko aur kaaleen par jamaa ho rahe khoon ke dher ko dekh rahe the.
deewaar ghadi ki tik-tik sunaaee de rahi thi. meri aankhon se aansu aur chaand ke haath se khoon bah rahaa thaa. isake alaawaa sab kuchh bilkul tham gayaa thaa.
aur phir jab khoon kaa ek badaa saa dher kaaleen par phail gayaa, aur nas se khoon bahane ki raftaar bahut dheemi ho gayi, tab pistaul ne chaaku ko ishaaraa kiyaa.
chaaku mujhe le kar peechhe waale darwaaze ki or chalaa, jisase wo donon aaye the. pistaul saath aayaa.
darwaaze par pahunch kar chaaku ne mujhe chhod diyaa.
pistaul ne mujhe zor se ek jhaapad maaraa.
main hosh mein aayaa, aur zor se kaanpaa.
pistual ne mujhase kahaa, "hosh aa gayaa? gaur se sun. ham jaa rahe hain. abhi subah hone mein waqt hai. yahaan koi nahin aane waalaa hai. soch le aaraam se. tujhe phansanaa ho yahin baith, yaa ring kar ke khud hi police ko bulaa le aur phansi par chadh jaa. par akal hai to bhaag jaa."
main haan mein sar hilaa thaa.
pistual ne kahaa, "par ek baat achchhi tarah samajh le. yah mar rahaa hai. tuu ab ise nahin bachaa sakataa. hasptaal le jaane yaa doctor bulaane ki qoshish ki to bhi yah to nahin bachegaa, too hi phans jaayegaa. isase abhi aur choomaa-chaati karani ho to khoon se door rahanaa aur isake marane ke baad isake badan se apane nishaan ponch denaa. isane tujhe tabaah kar diyaa aur too hai ki abhi bhi isase ishq kar rahaa hai. tuu bhi mere bhaaee ki tarah paagal hai."
phir usane mere sar par bade pyaar se haath pheraa. wahi haath jisase usane poori berahami se abhi ek qatl kiyaa thaa.
pistaul ne darawaaze ki saankal kholi. wo donon baahar nikal gaye aur seedhiyon ki taraf jaane lage. wo dikhanaa band ho gaye.
mainne darawaaze par sitkani lagaaee.
main daud kar chaand ke paas gayaa. usane aankhein band kar li thin. usaki saans bahut dheere-dheere chal rahi thi. usakaa gulaabi cheharaa ab peelaa aur safed padaa huaa thaa.
main khoon se bachataa huaa apane chaand ke chehare par jhuk gayaa aur use paagalon ki tarah choomane lagaa. mainne badbadaataa jaa rahaa thaa. "I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. ..."
main ro rahaa thaa.
mere chaand ke munh se kuchh aawaaz nikali. mainne sar hataa kar use dekhaa. usane aankhein thodi si khol dee theen. wo kaanpaa aur usane atakate huye kahaa, "thandaa lag rahaa hai."
mainne idhar-udhar dekhaa. main kyaa karoon? mujhe heat conveyor dikhaa. mainne daud kar usakaa switch on kiyaa. garm hawaa kaa ek jhonkaa aayaa. mainne use mod kar apane chaand ki taraf kar diyaa. mere chaand par garm hawaa padane lagi. usakaa kaanpanaa band ho gayaa.
main phir do kadam daud kar usake paas pahunchaa. usaki taaqat kam hoti jaa rahi thi.
main rotaa jaa rahaa thaa. main phir se use choomane lagaa aur badbadaane lagaa. "I love you. I love you, chaand."
use phir thand lagi. wo zor se kaanpaa. mainne cheharaa hataa kar use dekhaa.
usane kai baar atakate huye, phusphusaate huye bolaa, "mere bhaai kaa khayaal rakhanaa."
ye usake bole aakhiri shabd the.
main bhauchakkaa saa use dekh rahaa thaa. main usake bhaaee ko jaanataa bhi nahin thaa. usane khud hi kahaa thaa ki usake bhaee ke baare mein kisi ko nahin maaloom thaa. main usake bhaaee ko kaise dhoondhoongaa?
usane meri hairaani samajhi.
usane apanaa haath uthaane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin uthaa paayaa.
usane apanaa cheharaa ghumaane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin ghumaa paayaa.
usaki aankhon ki putaliyaan ghoomeen.
aur phir ek taraf dekhane lageen.
mainne udhar dekhaa. wo ek steel almirah ko dekh rahaa thaa.
meraa ronaa ruk gayaa thaa. mainne do kadam daud kar us almaari tak gayaa aur use kholaa. wo khul gaee. wo kapadon se bhari huyi thi.
mainne chaand ki or dekhaa ki ab kyaa karoon. wo mujhe hi dekh rahaa thaa. nahin, wo mere peechhe almaari ko dekh rahaa thaa. almaari mein kuchh thaa.
mainne kapadon ke beech mein jagah banaa kar dekhaa.
Almaari mein peechhe, neeche ki taraf kai hard disks rakhi theen.
meri samajh mein aa gayaa. mainne wo sabhi hard disk nikaal kar usake doublebed par phailaa deen. 12 Hard disk theen.
main do kadam daud kar chaand ke paas pahunchaa.
mainne poochaa, "in hard disk mein tumhaare bhaaee kaa pataa hai?"
usane ek paar palak jhapaki. kyaa wo haan kah rahaa thaa?
mainne poochaa, "main inhein apane saath le jaaoon aur dekhoon?"
usane ek paar palak jhapaki. haan.
mainne sochaa aur poochaa, "kyaa inamein password hai?"
usane ek paar palak jhapaki. haan.
mainne kahaa, "password bataa."
usane munh kholane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin khol paayaa.
usane kuchh bolane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin bol paayaa.
usane putaliyaan hilaane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin hilaa paayaa.
usane palakein jhapakane ki qoshish kari, wo nahin kar paayaa.
usaki saari taaqat khatam ho chuki thi. wo mar rahaa thaa.
main phir rone lagaa thaa. he bhagwaan. ise ek second ki zindagi aur de-de, taaki yah password bataa sake. taaki main usaki files khol sakoon. taaki main isake bhaaee ko dhoondh sakoon. taaki main usakaa khayaal rakh sakoon. taaki yah chain se mar sake.
main paagalon ki tarah use choomataa jaa rahaa thaa. main gidgidaa rahaa thaa, "mujhe password bataa de, chaand. tabhi main tere bhaae ko dhoondh paaoongaa. tabhi main usakaa khayaal rakh paaoongaa. main waadaa karataa hoon ki main tere bhaaee kaa apani poori zindagi khayaal rakhoongaa. par mujhe password bataa, chaand. I love you, chaand. thodi himmat aur kar le, chaand. bas ek baar, aakhiri baar aur, chaand."
usakaa badan aakhiri baar kaanpaa, aur wo behosh ho gayaa. hameshaa ke liye.
phir mainne usaki saanson ko rukaa mahasoos kiyaa.
phir mainne usake chehare ko thandaa hote mahasoos kiyaa.
meraa chaand mar chukaa thaa.
mainne dekhaa. usaki kati nas par khoon ki ek bond jamaa thi jo bahut hi dheere-dheere badi ho rahi thi.
usake chehare par sukuun thaa. use "suicide" mein koi bhi dard nahin huaa thaa, kam se kam jismaani dard to nahin.
usaki adhkhuli bejaan aanekhin meri taraf dekh rahi thin, aur kah rahi thin, "mere bhaaee kaa khayaal rakhanaa."
mainne usaki palakein band karin.
main usake bhaaee kaa khayaal nahin rakh paaoongaa.
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mainne do-teen gahari-gahari saansein leen. meraa dimaag saaf kaam karane lagaa. meraa yahaan par phansane kaa, yaa police ko bulaane kaa koi iraadaa nahin thaa.
mainne kapadon ke us dher mein se sabase neeche se nikaal kar apane chaand ke ek jodaa kapade pahane. chaddhi, baniyaan kaa jhanjhat nahin. sirf ek shirt aur ek jeans. mainne usakaa ek badaa saa cap pahanaa.
oopar se mainne usaki wahi qaatil leather jacket pahan lee. wo jacket usakaa sabase achchhaa ishtahaar rahati.
main usake raat waale joote pahan kar room mein har taraf khaamkhwaah kuchh baar chalaa, taaki mere pairon ke puraane nishaanon ke oopar naye nishaan aa jaayen, jo ki usake jooton ke hon. phir mainne usake joote waise hi daal diye jaise usane raat ko daale the. phir mainne usake doosari jodi joote pahane, binaa moze ke.
main jis-jis jagah baithaa thaa, mainne jo-jo chhuaa thaa, us har jagah ko mainne usake ek rumaal se achchhi tarah ponchhaa.
mujhe dhyaan aayaa ki usake paani, sode, colddrinks mein se kuchh mein dawaa mili huyi thi. mainne fridge se paani ki sabhi botalein nikaal kar unako sink mein khali kar diyaa aur botalein dho kar, nayaa paani bhar kar fridge mein rakh diyaa. phir mainne sode, colddrinks ki saari bolatein khol kar sink mein bahaa din aur dho kar kitchen mein neech ek taraf rakh deen. mainne sink achchhi tarah dho diyaa. aur phir
mainne fridge ko bhi off kar diyaa. kuchh cheezein sad jaayein to baakiyon ki bhi testing nahin ki jaayegi.
kitchen mein hi darwaaze mein lagaaee jaane waali ek moti chain padi thi. usamein taalaa aur do chaabhiyaan thin. mainne chain, taalaa aur doosari chaabhi apani jeb mein daal li. kitchen ki light off ki. aur doosari chaabhi le jaa kar computer table par rakh di.
waqt bilkul nahin thaa. mainne usakaa ek bag uthaayaa. usamein usaki wo 12 hard disk bhareen. apane saare kapade, apanaa mobile, hands-free, cap, joote rakhe. mainne bag apane kandhe par daalaa. main jaane ke liye tayyaar thaa.
kahin door se fazr ki aazaan ki aawaaz sunaaee di, "allaah ho akabar."
mainne jaa kar apane chaand ke murdaa chehare ko kai baar choomaa. mainne usase kahaa, "toone mujhe password nahin bataayaa hai, chaand. main teri files ko kholane ki qoshish karoongaa, par agar nahin khol paayaa to main tere bhaaee ko nahin dhoondh paaoongaa. tab main usakaa khayaal nahin rakh paaoongaa."
imaam saaheb bol rahe the, "alassalaato Khairun minn al naum".
mainne apane chaand se kahaa, "namaaz need se behatar hai, chaand. uth. mujhe password bataa de."
wo nahin uthaa. main usase lipataa rotaa rahaa aur aazaan sunataa rahaa. aazaan khatm ho gayi.
mainne apane chaand ko aakhiri baar choomaa. phir mainne usakaa badan, cheharaa aur usake kapadon ko bhi achchhi tarah ponchaa, jahaan-jahaan mainne chhuaa thaa.
mainne rumaal se CFL ke switch off kiye. tab mujhe dhyaan aaya ki main heat-conveyor ke switch se to apani ungali ke nishaan hataanaa bhool gayaa thaa. mainne rumaal se heat conveyor ko aur usake switch ko ponchaa. heat conveyor abhi bhi chal rahaa thaa. mainne sochaa use band kar doon. par mere chaand kaa badan thandaa ho rahaa thaa. mainne heat conveyor chalane diyaa.
main darawaaze tak pahunchaa. mainne rumaal se automatic lock kholaa. darwaazaa kholaa. mainne rumaal se aakhiri CFL off kari.
kamare mein andheraa chhaa gayaa.
mainne baahar aa kar rumaal se pakad kar handle kheenchaa. darwaazaa band huaa. usakaa lock apane aap lag gayaa.
mainne neeche jaa kar rumaal se main gate kaa stopper aur phir gate kholaa. main apani bike ko dhakelataa huaa baahar laayaa. bike khadi kar ke mainne gate band kiyaa. stopper lagaayaa. aur phir mainne kitchen se mili chain ko gate par baadh kar usamein taalaa lagaa diyaa. chaabhi mainne jeb mein daal li.
kahin koi nahin thaa. meraa bhaari bag mere kandhon par thaa. main bike dhakelataa huaa le gayaa, aur do galiyon ke baad use start kiyaa aur le chalaa. sadakein sunsaan padi theen.
raaste mein mujhe ek jagah par ek khaali public urinal dikhaa. jisake aage deewaar bani huyi thi. kahin koi nahin thaa. mainne us urinal mein jaa kar usake galiyaare mein apane chaand ke wo kapade-joote utaare jo main pahane thaa. mainne apani chaddhi-baniyaan, shirt-pant, jacket, cap, joote pahan liye. mainne apanaa mobile apani jeb mein rakhaa, mainne apanaa hands free kaan mein taangaa.
mainne usake kapade apane bag mein daale. mainne main gate par lagaaee chain ki chaabhi ko urinal ke peechhe ki naali mein daal diyaa. main bike par ud chalaa.
aur phir raaste mein sadakon ke kinaare door-door, alag-alag, pade sote huye bhikhariyon ke paas mainne chaand ki shirt, pant, cap, joote, rumaal rakh diye.
leather jacket itani mahangi thi ki bhikhaari ko hi shaq ho jaataa aur wo hi jaa kar police ko bataa sakataa thaa, yaa bechane ki qoshish to shartiyaa karataa. isaliye mainne use kisi ko nahin diyaa. baad ko dekhaa jaayegaa.
leather jacket se mere liye khataraa bilkul nahin badhaa thaa. agar police mujh tak pahunchati to leather jacket se pahale mujhe un 12 hard disks kaa hisaab denaa padataa.
main hostel pahunchaa. do gali pahale bike kaa engine kill kar diyaa, aur use ghaseetataa huaa le gayaa. kahin koi nahin thaa. mainne hostel ke neeche bike park kari. kahin koi nahin thaa. main beaawaaz apane room mein gayaa. ek halki si aawaaz ke saath room kaa taalaa kholaa. aur bheetar jaa kar sitkani lagaa di.
ab main safe thaa. filhaal.
thodi der mein mere dil kaa dhadakanaa normal huaa.
mainne apane ek briefcase mein apane chaand ki sabhi hard disks aur leather jacket rakh kar lock kar diyaa. mere chaand kaa bag mainne apane gadde ke neechhe chhupaa liyaa. kal, nahin aaj, din badal chukaa thaa, ise kisi ko de doongaa.
mainne change kiyaa, aur main chaddar odh kar bistar mein let gayaa.
mainne aankhein band ki aur meraa chaand meri bagal mein letaa huaa milaa. mainne usase kahaa, "toone mujhe passoword nahin bataayaa hai, chaand. main tere bhaaee ko nahin dhoondh paaoongaa."
wo muskuraataa huaa mujhase lipat gayaa. main usase lipat gayaa. mujhe need aa gayi.
khidaki se meri chaand-raat ki subah kaa ujaalaa phootane lagaa thaa.
meraa chaand ab meri poori zindagi mere saath rahane waalaa thaa.
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